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As many of you know, I was once married. Though I often think about my ex and sometimes miss him (how can I not miss someone I was with for almost a third of my life?), I don’t regret ending that relationship. Over the past three years, I’ve slowly eliminated physical items that remind me of him and our history. A few things, like the scrapbook I made of our trip to Russia, I’ll never trash. Because although he was there, it was essentially a family vacation and an amazing adventure I don’t want to forget. But there are two items I’ve been holding onto, and I think it’s time to let them go: My wedding and engagement rings.

For some reason, I have conflicting emotions about this. I’m hesitant to part with them. It’s strange, because I never wear these rings. They’ve been sitting in a closet collecting dust since I broke off our relationship. And I have no desire to re-purpose them into something else. Honestly, diamonds aren’t my thing. They represent the 20-something-year-old girl who was obsessed with getting married because society told her that was the next logical step in her life. I’m no longer that girl. I’m happy where I am; self-reliant, independent, and absolutely not conforming to societal norms.

Still, why do I hesitate? Is it because once these are gone, there’s really nothing left besides my memories? Am I worried I’ll wake up one morning and regret the decision to take this jewelry out of hiding? Am I attaching some weird sentimental value to inanimate objects?

I could ponder this for another couple of years, but I won’t. To be frank, I could use some extra money now that I spent my savings on a condo and related renovations (another post for another time). So, today is the day I start to bid adieu to jewelry that once represented so many things but what I’m now hoping will represent me parting ways with my past and moving on with my future.


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